Kerrious

When Curiosity Doesn't Kill You……YOU LEARN. More Than Just a Breathe of Fresh Air

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I’ve Learned; Non-Judgemental

I released all judgements

left them behind

for another time

for me to find.

All judgements

started racing through my mind.

One by one

they were released

into the abyss.

No longer judgemental

just a memory

in my mind

of how things used to be,

I never could overcome me.

Now when I see you

I won’t judge

I’ll see everything

but the bad

turn your flaws into gold,

With this

it was clear,

things are never

as they appear.

(copyright Kerrious 2016 with all rights reserved).

 

I’ve Learned; Society

Shouldn’t have to tell you twice

to not tell me twice

and to take my meds

Project onto me your anxieties

as I’m fearless

and not scared of anything anymore

Not life, not death

waiting on others

why should I tell them twice?

Dragging out minutes of truth

to suffice your needs

and addictions.

While I sat in a place

disappointed in my fellow man

lasting weeks, what should have been just hours

to understand – at least to me.

Waiting on the others

don’t tell me twice to take my meds

or anything for that matter

But I’ll tell you twice

enough until you listen

take your meds, society

take them with food

my fear is your appetite

but I fear no more

so you will starve

and I won’t tell you twice

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Nature

That’s right, I don’t own you

you choose to be with me

The fish choose to

like the cat who found a home

because they see that home in you

they choose to be caught

and all need to live a full life

then choose to fill your cravings

for we do not own anything.

You don’t own anyone

certainly not me

but I choose you

and He just heppened to take notice

trusted my judgement, as poor as yours.

Yet I know I wasn’t owed anything

because we are free

and you don’t own anything,

not the tree, for they should own you.

Destroyers of the old world

where are you now?

Creators of the new world

we are the ones here now.

And we know, we don’t own anything

they are gifts to be bestowed

eyed upon all.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Mission

Mission accommplished

solutions to a problem

unknown source; to you

profound confirmation

God’s not dead

you lost sight of the mission

This is what transpires

When you think your father’s Dead.

Stitch you all up

like Jesus tried

it took so long for his ripple to transpire

but is it too late for you?

I feel he leaves no man behind

you can only leave yourself behind,

unless he intervenes

Has he intervened? Think about it.

Mission in waiting

hearing your cues

mission not accomplished

without all of you.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Happy

I’m everything

rolled into one

cause I see you in me

and you are beautiful and smart

courageous and kind

soft spoken yet fierce

child-like and wise

much too valuable

for a place like this

but everything would wait

for everything as it

sees nothing to fight for

and nothing to gain

but for you to be happy

whichever way you choose,

Because I am Happy.

and you deserve to be too….

Everything is beautiful and smart

and I am you and you are me

with a soul

everything is free

it’s a free ride

and we own nothing.

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all right reserved).

I’ve Learned; Universal Donors

Universal Donor; are we?

Universal Pride!

Laid in the hands of what was left,

fighting like rats?

You in the corner? or we who are free?

Like rats backed into a corner

scratching the surface

too afraid to move

Yet willing to die instead, you were.

But you forgot and I don’t blame you

Just stop digging is all I ask.

Everything’s gonna be okay.

Universal flight

universal sight

and my love for you is infinite

just like your might

just like you, my favorites

universal donors yet universal truth

Please don’t be afraid, I Love you……

For I feel in love with humans

and all the secrets they hold

especially from themselves

and how they do it so well

and how I am not like them but I Love them.

What’s in the blood

They can’t take my blood

transfusions…

of my own design

good deeds unnoticed,

while others take the credit

silly people with even sillier brains.

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Crazy

I ain’t running


Running, Running, Running

Keep that train coming

but they can’t seem to find me, anywhere

Here I am I thought

inside here, this human flesh

I’ve been in for years but they can’t seem to find me

because they haven’t found themselves

So alone I wait and pace and pace

while you alone call me crazy

when everything’s been upside down

Now I love when they call me crazy

as I no longer need to fear

cause now I see it was you, not me

as they no longer call me crazy.

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Dreamer

I do not have writer’s block,

I am just scared of what I’d find.

Millions of unanswered questions and thousands of solutions.

Finding the positive in even the worse situations.

How can I be like this?

I took it all and made it something grand.

I took all your flaws and told you you were a man.

I was lying to myself first and then to you.

I didn’t want to puncture this picture I drew.

I let you in and hated that fact.

I didn’t want to turn back.

I had done it before, a dozen times before.

Never thought you’d be the one to betray me.

No matter what I do I just can’t win.

I lost it all before and this time it’s okay.

I knew all along and should have listened to my instincts.

Why do I attract the likes of you?

They say it’s because I’m a good person and parasites need to feed.

But I absorb myself into love so much that I think that it’s me.

I hope you could see. I hope I could just be me.

I hope I can remember this feeling forever.

I am alive. I am happy.

My soul has been made intact and how that happened, I really don’t know.

Something happened in a year to make me feel whole again.

Yes, sometimes I get sad and lonely, but I know it’s for the best.

I have learned so much and can only feel more.

I am not crazy, not by your terms.

I tried to label myself for too long.

I am evolving. Why me? It’s out of my control.

Maybe I made the decision years ago.

It has been so long since I’ve wrote anything. I am tired of holding it all in. but honestly I have nothing to write. That is the scary thing. I am changing. I do not know why. I want to write. But I dream instead.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved). written in 2013. mapping out my awakening in order to help others find their way.

I’ve Learned; Mind Control

Down on my knees
Begging God please
I know that you are there
I just know that you are
It’s different now
You aren’t the same
You opened up to me
I was there to see
Still this anger resides
In the back of my mind
I blame it on myself
Instead of everyone else
You let me in and let me live
I am aware now
I was in pain
Trapped inside this flesh of a girl
Who longs for love and love in return
I know I have all the love in the world
And to feel less alone
I believe others are out there too
Who could love like me
I gave it my all
Down to my core
No matter how much I hurt
I will always pull through.
Now this writing is shallow
Because I repress the pain
I really want to scream
But I sang in the shower instead
I was to think negatively
But only positive words appear
I want to strangle myself
But I am just too hard on myself
When did it become this game
This game of lies
I can’t sort through them all anymore
I know I am the truth
and that keeps me going
I can’t keep doing this to myself
This writing is so shallow.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved). written in 2012 during a terrible job , how easily the vulnerable can be manipulated into thinking they aren’t good enough.

I’ve Learned; You Do it All

wrote this when I was 9.


“You Do it All”

It’s easy to know what you’re thinking
It’s hard to tell what you say
But inside it’s burning like hell
The one thing that no one knows
You seem to misunderstand every little word
Just remember what it really meant

It’s easy to see what you’ve been doing
It’s hard to tell what I’ve been thinking
It’s not the same
It’s all wrong
And I’m trying to understand

You go on your way
Not asking about me
It’s okay, we can go away
It’s not everyday you let your feelings out
It’s every once in a while that you can

You don’t listen
You don’t care
I am listening
I care

It’s burning inside
The anger I have
Not once did I say
Go away
You put words in my mouth
They are crazy
You…..
You do it all.

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

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