Kerrious

When Curiosity Doesn't Kill You……YOU LEARN. More Than Just a Breathe of Fresh Air

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I’ve Learned; Breathe

I have no religion

only ideals

I never claimed to be anything

other than the truth

the truth as it occurs to me

from experience alone

throughout my life

I’ve been taking notes

to find my truth

I know my truth

is not your truth

but there is something universal about it

the way it all came to me

on it’s own

because I was searching.

I have no religion

my religion is truth

it’s what I believe

because it happened to me.

In my depths of despair

I always came up for air

something was always there

and when I didn’t need to breathe anymore

something else was doing it for me.

When I didn’t want to live

something else was keeping me alive

So I’ll take that as a sign

a sign of my truth

I must be here for a reason

even though I want to go

but I am in no hurry

I’ll take what you gave me

and continue to live

because I know

that’s all you have to give

is the life that I live.

 

(copyright Kerrious 2015 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Vision

In my vision

you just rolled your eyes at me

when I needed you

someone to vent to.

Except now I know

that was a mistake

I’d never roll my eyes at you.

It felt like everyone was against me

not wanting to help me

only to judge me

and put me away.

I guess you were

no exception

if I held everyone to those standards

I’d have no one left

that I loved.

When I was traveling

I lost you

I couldn’t find you

As I got out of my car

It felt like I released

a heavy burden

shivers so divine

I could have shined,

Like returning to the promised land.

Now I no longer

look to you

or anyone

Only myself

and my strength

is what I need.

Keep rolling your eyes

because you just might find

some truth

in me.

 

(Copyright Kerrious 2015 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; 48 Days Ago

I claim to want a universal truth but the beauty lies in each individual, as we all have a truth to live by. That’s what sets us apart but yet we will always have to question our one truth so what’s different about universal truth?

It’ll always be a question you seek to answer to only discover pieces at a time. I’d like to think we each go around until we find our own universal truth, not some collective, one way truth where everyone has to have the same truth but in a way that tells you who you really are and then why, together that becomes our universal truth.

Truth is a journey and the destinations keeps changing because the truth keeps changing and you are always changing.

That’s my truth, my individual truth runs from my universal truth as I thought I needed to change to find it but it’s been with me all along. As we individually find ourselves, primordial change will follow which will lead us to our universal truth. And We, humans, hold all the secrets to the universe.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Inner Children

like a child
I always was
I fought a two year old
which made me sick
I met a five year old
and it made me angry,
disillusioned
I saw an eight year old
remembered I was smarter
said goodbye to a thirteen year old
made me happy
feeling sixteen again
opened my eyes
to the past
I had summoned
no longer sixteen
I turned nineteen
and it made me shy
twenty-one
no longer alone
twenty-two
wondering why
not one adult helped
twenty-three
help yourself
twenty-four
done keeping score
then I was twenty-seven
and a woman who knew
none of those ages
were really her
not really
they returned
to let me know
what I was feeling
wasn’t me at all
but a projection
of others
those inner children
and to this day
they all provoke
a strength; my true age
that can’t be hidden
because no matter the age
my inner children prevail
to grow
strange how you forget
or never know
with time I grow stronger
never weaker
I am a woman
who disciplines
her inner children
because
she loves them
and herself enough
to save the children.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved)

kids-save-the-world

She’s happy because she’s free.
That’s where it all began.
The fight for freedom,
even in her own way,
was inspiring.
If only to herself.

Once she noticed the chains,
she wouldn’t stop
until her hands were broke free.
Until she could taste freedom,
she would never be happy.
Until she could feel it,
to be sure it’s real.

And On the way
she found truth.

Truth yet to be revealed

And she’s learned….
Sometimes she is bad,
even for herself.

 

Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved.

We need to focus on truth, not survival.

 

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned What Freedom Means to Me

The truth is painful

That is why we lie

The truth is painful when it comes out

Let’s not fear pain

Then the truth just comes

But this time it’ll come out with such an ease

And all shame is gone

You won’t even be aware of the fear anymore

Instead you overcome it

That is freedom

To me

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(Copyright 2014 Kerrious with All Rights Reserved)

I’ve Learned My Purpose

I have noticed we constantly strive to figure out our purpose. Most of us have a deep desire to want to know why we are here. It is a desire, and with that desire nothing good can come of it. Desire is just word but yet it is not what we are aiming for. It is a three syllable word that holds so much weight. It is a word and yet it can be the down fall for many. A simple word such as desire can elude even the most observational. What do you desire? Do you have desires?

Eventually, I began to see that I do not desire much. I am not one to sit and ponder over my desires. I do not desire fame, power, or money. Rather, I think about what it is that makes me, me. I ponder the questions that we all do, but I don’t allow them to dissolve once I have heard the answer. I allow them to materialize and formulate into the missing puzzle pieces I so deliberately cling to. Sometimes it will feel like a game of desire vs. purpose, you will learn how to distinguish between the two. Check out a fellow blogger’s introspection on the topic where she describes it being the higher self vs. ego — http://kundalinidotorg.wordpress.com/2013/11/27/path-of-ego-v-higher-self/

She does great work.

Furthermore,

If i desire anything, it is the truth.

I learned that your life purpose is probably starring you straight in the face. I’ve learned that it is something you have had all you life. I’ve learned that it is the one thing that you think is a curse. I’ve learned that it is why other’s have seen in you in the past. I’ve learned it is something that others may have used you for in the past.  I’ve learned that what you think is a curse is actually what you were born to do. I’ve learned that you are not in control of how it affects the world around you. All you can do is be what you are meant to be everyday and somehow you will see. Somehow you will realize that all is as it should be. Everything you have ever done for another was as it was supposed to be. Because that was your purpose at the time.

I’ve learned your purpose changes as you change. As you grow so doesn’t your purpose. We hold such value and grandiosity to the word purpose. It is not such a big word after all. Because what is our purpose is the most simple aspect of ourselves, that even we, ourselves, have overlooked in the past, that we could chalk it up to being a flaw. We think that our purpose is what has held us back. So, what is your purpose? What is it that attracts others to you?

I’ve learned my purpose is that I allow others to be themselves. To be completely who they are in the presence of another human being.

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My gift to the world at this point in time, is that any person can be in my presence and I allow them to be themselves.

There are many other purposes and ways to find them, but that is another story for another time.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

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