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When Curiosity Doesn't Kill You……YOU LEARN. More Than Just a Breathe of Fresh Air

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I’ve Learned; Happy

I’m everything

rolled into one

cause I see you in me

and you are beautiful and smart

courageous and kind

soft spoken yet fierce

child-like and wise

much too valuable

for a place like this

but everything would wait

for everything as it

sees nothing to fight for

and nothing to gain

but for you to be happy

whichever way you choose,

Because I am Happy.

and you deserve to be too….

Everything is beautiful and smart

and I am you and you are me

with a soul

everything is free

it’s a free ride

and we own nothing.

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all right reserved).

Today, the cycle continued. Never-ending empty holes and shattered glass. Glass that turned fine expression into bruised and bloody. The visualization seemed less obscure from the point of view we all knew. Up in rooms where ears would listen, but bodies felt numb. Numb to the core, as violence rang through them, wondering if it would cease soon. The question was not when, but how. Knowing we were out of harm’s way, she would take the fall for us all. Up here, it seemed like a sanctuary far away from the disarray around us. Oblivion suited our needs presently. Even a stereo failed us. Our spirits were held back with irony, only wanting to break free and rip apart this establishment. Down there, never-ending hatred had been thrown back and forth, like our weathered ears could not hear. Did she really think restraining him from his subservient and derelict home would work? Deep within us, we vowed to stray. As we peaked out from our havens, we did nothing but stare. Stared at the repulsion we called life. Emptiness prevailed as the shattering of contempt took place for his lack of a high. Engaged were our eyes, as our apprehension took the best of us. Recollections of an uncontrollable fiend, tearing apart a home, stairway and all, graced our intact minds. We thought of only one thing; think happy thoughts is what she would say. As the tone of a phone rang hushed but clear, we were forced to say, sorry friend, we can’t play today.


 

Deep within us,

we vowed to stray.

As we peaked out from our havens,

we did nothing but stare.

Stared at the repulsion we called life.

We thought of only one thing;

think happy thoughts is what she would say.

As the tone of a phone rang; hushed but clear,

we were forced to say,

sorry friend,

we can’t play today.

Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved.

(written in 2009)

Think Happy Thoughts: A Short Story from the Subconscious

She stood at the end of the road with thoughts of you. She never quite got it right. It wasn’t until later when she would realize all of this was happening. No one quite got it and that is what she feared. Although some could, but would never admit it. They like their shells and wouldn’t come out any time soon. So she thought maybe she would walk farther, but wasn’t sure what you would think. She picked up a leaf that looked quite strange. It radiated green, orange, and red colors. Almost tied-dyed, if a leaf could ever be. That’s why she picked it up because she noticed things like that. She didn’t realize that wasn’t supposed to happen. She carried it with her and gazed down towards the trees. She thought the trees gave her oxygen and that they controlled us with that. The thought of something that wasn’t real but could be scared her. Why aren’t they superior? She thought, as she let out a little cough. She knew no one that could answer that question or even lead her in the right direction. So she kept walking and she could never quite get it right. You popped up again in her mind, only this time it had changed. Pleasant thoughts turned to unpleasant thoughts. Surreal memories turned to erased images. She tried to piece it together, the nights you were there. She didn’t know where they went, only that they had gone. She wished they were there, but knew she had used them up. Dissecting thoughts is the way it expands. She longed for expression, in the simplest forms; though she never quite got it right. She came to a dead end, but made it something more. Looking around, glad no one was around. It’s you and me she thought. She picked up a rock, shaped much like a heart. She wanted to show it, but had no one to show it to. This threw her off guard, why she didn’t know. So she was happy to have found it, but only wished she could have shared it. So she kept it and turned around, and continued in the opposite direction. As she walked back from where she came from, a relapse occurred. Thoughts of you settled in her mind. Who are you? She thought, as a drop of rain crashed on her forehead. She had no protection, but she didn’t care. We were meant to feel the rain, meant to breathe this air. As she looked up at the sky, she of coursed asked why. Now these days aren’t so bad, with all its abundance. She kept her pace, and continued to where she started. She dreamed of the day someone could answer these questions. To know she wouldn’t drown in her thoughts. Now the road got narrow and the trees taller. The sun got hotter, the rain fewer, and the night much quieter. She wishes the feeling would stay longer. It’s expected, but still she waited. The thoughts slowly faded and took you with them. She wandered towards the beginning and she took a look back. Something she told herself she would never do. She turned her head around, and stepped into a place she had to go. She left all the thoughts behind her. For once she got it right.

-written in 2008, Think Happy Thoughts.

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