Kerrious

When Curiosity Doesn't Kill You……YOU LEARN. More Than Just a Breathe of Fresh Air

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Men think it’s such an accomplishment or a test in wit to get a woman into bed “easily” as if they Jedi mind tricked her. But the real accomplishment is getting into her heart. And if that is still manipulation you’ve won nothing, not really.

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; 210 Days Ago

Because every time I do it, I get this excruciating reminding of how alone I really am. Not lonely just alone and it stays with me for days. I can’t shake it but I can’t just stop either. It consumes me for days and it’s not exactly regret or I wouldn’t have done it but it’s the reminder of what it’s like to be so close to a person, connected like that. Something I took for granted when I did have it even if it was with the wrong people. You just don’t know how much you miss something until you taste it again. Or how much you long to connect and be so close to a person because it’s the only thing we really have. And I now have nothing. Maybe that is the feeling knowing it wasn’t really mine but just for that moment in time. Knowing nothing good can come from it or anything with substance and that is why I feel so empty. Because I keep doing it. When I want something more, quite the opposite.

Why do I let it consume me for days after? Why does it matter so much? Because I feel like I betrayed myself to the mundane actions we humans succumb to. I want more, but sometimes it feels that is all I’ll ever have. I just want one, only one.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved). on being the other woman.

So easy to forget about me

when there’s so much pain associated with you.

I thought you had something of mine,

I thought I had to get it back.

But you never took it and it was never lost.

I gave it freely,

So I could take it back.

I just didn’t know it yet.

 

Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved.

(written in 2010).

You’ll laugh it off

You’ll tell your part

You’ll say things about me

And when asked shrug it off.

Although the things you say

Have no reality or truth,

Just what you need to tell yourself.

You know you’re convincing

You know they’ll fall in,

Fall in to every word,

As if it’s the fact of the day.

Though you can’t sway all

And you saw that in me,

It’s so seemingly lucid now

How it worried you.

Although you left,
You took much that wasn’t yours.
A smile that never faded.
A heart that stayed true.
Although you didn’t notice,
You weren’t attuned to the fact,
You’d rather change others,
Than give anything back.
Smothering me with transparent bodies,
Included ways of staying intact.
Although you stayed the same,
You’ll always have that.
Rather receive than give,
Is how you dealt the game.
Life’s torturing ways of being inferior.
A lot of things you couldn’t control.
Although, you compensated for what you lacked,
How does it feel inside,
To know you can never get it back?

 

Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved.

(written in 2008)

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