Kerrious

When Curiosity Doesn't Kill You……YOU LEARN. More Than Just a Breathe of Fresh Air

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I’ve Learned; Heaven

I told you I was going to heaven

and all you could do was say

you wanted to stay

to eat the souls of the living.

The souls of all those

who couldn’t find their way

towards heaven…

Like a fish

you were willing

to swim in the abyss.

As the light consumed my mind

I did not go.

Like a bug who goes to the light

I put up a fight

like the insect who died

by going to the light

I used that reasoning

to not go that night.

I didn’t trust it

all the while

looking at the sun

with my bare eyes

as if it was normal

and I knew that couldn’t be right.

I’m still not sure

what you wanted me for

except maybe I was ready

to move on…

to let go of everything

except some were holding on

to me.

Now I know it’s not about letting go

but it’s about needing others to let you go

in the end.

Even the love from your dog

can save you

The love of your mother

can bring you back

and just like that

I was brought back.

Heaven will have to wait

I was so close to the gate

but for now

I’ll bring back what I found

because for others

it can be profound.

 

(copyright Kerrious 2015 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Breathe

I have no religion

only ideals

I never claimed to be anything

other than the truth

the truth as it occurs to me

from experience alone

throughout my life

I’ve been taking notes

to find my truth

I know my truth

is not your truth

but there is something universal about it

the way it all came to me

on it’s own

because I was searching.

I have no religion

my religion is truth

it’s what I believe

because it happened to me.

In my depths of despair

I always came up for air

something was always there

and when I didn’t need to breathe anymore

something else was doing it for me.

When I didn’t want to live

something else was keeping me alive

So I’ll take that as a sign

a sign of my truth

I must be here for a reason

even though I want to go

but I am in no hurry

I’ll take what you gave me

and continue to live

because I know

that’s all you have to give

is the life that I live.

 

(copyright Kerrious 2015 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Lights

When I looked at the moon

I felt you looking at it too

as if we both

were doing the same thing

at the same time,

thinking about each other,

Missing each other

because we loved each other.

Almost threw it away

until the day

I couldn’t live without you.

I had never been so happy

not in my entire life

and it was taken from me

in an instant

while I was in control of nothing

not a bit of it.

I felt my heart break

I felt the love disappear

to only resurface

when you decided to see clear.

We woke up laughing everyday

and throughout my life

I never had that before

So please don’t label me

with your past

I started brand new

why couldn’t you?

So I’ll just look at the moon

knowing you are too

maybe at the same time

you were never mine

as we both belonged to everyone

until we woke up

and realized

all that didn’t matter

not anymore.

Shining lights

floating through the air

only I could see them

what were they telling me?

I still don’t know

except I never loved anyone

the way I loved you

it’s like I always knew

this day would come.

I am like the lights

that float in the air

I am like the moon

who hangs there

I admire you

and all that you know

can’t you see

how much I loved you?

would do anything for you?

I think it was something

that needed to happen

we were lost in our love

we needed to break free

and share our love

with others.

And maybe those lights

jolted us awake

to only say

there is no other way

to reach true love

If we wanted what we created

we would have to be ripped apart

to heal in ourselves

what was keeping us apart.

To only find each other again

and realize what we have

and our purpose

is to give it away

as easily as we received it

is as easily as we can share it.

Although I worked hard

to find love

It all came so easy.

Like the lights

which dissipated in time

we too will disappear

but our love you can hear….

forever

for infinity

for all of time

only true love remains

after the lights are gone.

(Copyright Kerrious 2015 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Love is Real

Sitting here

trying to write

for the words are near

my mind needs cleared.

All these thoughts and words

aren’t mine

but other’s I hear.

When will my voice

be the loudest?

When will my words

be shared?

Sitting here

thinking about you

but who are you?

You just smiled

as I started to fear

a gentle smile

as my fear grew near,

but I never felt so safe

it was all so real.

Now I’m thinking

what made it real

was the love I had for you

it grew so big

was vibrant

and new

and I loved you all the way through.

 

(Copyright Kerrious 2015 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; You Just Know

I know I love you because I’ve been surpassing all the levels on the way to love and realizing it. I always look forward to the next level and am excited with how far we can go. That sir, is what I think love is and I love you. I just want to be your partner through these levels, together. I may not always be able to tell you why. All I know is how to trust myself. When I’m with you I am  myself and never feel ashamed about that. I never look down o you. In fact, I admire your way of being. It exists in me too and I think I know why. I want you just how you make me happy, exactly who you are and how you make me feel. I don’t care to worry about the future because I have the feeling it will be okay. I want you to continue with me through this experience as a human being.

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved). Sample love letter.

Men think it’s such an accomplishment or a test in wit to get a woman into bed “easily” as if they Jedi mind tricked her. But the real accomplishment is getting into her heart. And if that is still manipulation you’ve won nothing, not really.

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Love

I said if only love was enough

but it is enough, it is enough

That’s all we really do need

love was always enough, for me

While you search the world

for happiness

My love will linger

and I’m always right here

but you won’t be.

Because love is enough

even though you may still question

if love was ever enough?

You can play catch up

while my love grows.

Will we ever meet in that place again?

in between truth and reality?

I know I’m alone in this space

for miles and miles away.

Love was enough

and we all held it through

despite the fear and hate

we want to spread Love

even to those who wouldn’t.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Unpredictablity

Life’s unpredictability has taught us not to trust

But then since life is unpredictable

we develop habits…..

humans are unpredictable too

which causes everyone not to trust

due to unpredictability of the future,

even if the person hasn’t done anything

the looming feeling is still there

because that is what still happened

(copyright Kerrious44 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Dreamer

I do not have writer’s block,

I am just scared of what I’d find.

Millions of unanswered questions and thousands of solutions.

Finding the positive in even the worse situations.

How can I be like this?

I took it all and made it something grand.

I took all your flaws and told you you were a man.

I was lying to myself first and then to you.

I didn’t want to puncture this picture I drew.

I let you in and hated that fact.

I didn’t want to turn back.

I had done it before, a dozen times before.

Never thought you’d be the one to betray me.

No matter what I do I just can’t win.

I lost it all before and this time it’s okay.

I knew all along and should have listened to my instincts.

Why do I attract the likes of you?

They say it’s because I’m a good person and parasites need to feed.

But I absorb myself into love so much that I think that it’s me.

I hope you could see. I hope I could just be me.

I hope I can remember this feeling forever.

I am alive. I am happy.

My soul has been made intact and how that happened, I really don’t know.

Something happened in a year to make me feel whole again.

Yes, sometimes I get sad and lonely, but I know it’s for the best.

I have learned so much and can only feel more.

I am not crazy, not by your terms.

I tried to label myself for too long.

I am evolving. Why me? It’s out of my control.

Maybe I made the decision years ago.

It has been so long since I’ve wrote anything. I am tired of holding it all in. but honestly I have nothing to write. That is the scary thing. I am changing. I do not know why. I want to write. But I dream instead.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved). written in 2013. mapping out my awakening in order to help others find their way.

I found this information (sorry I can’t find the sources) through the past year or two, I think it will help:

-Changelings: They were changelings; it is a characteristic of many prophets. Every time you look at them, you see a different person, because a spiritual person changes as the present changes. They reflect the present as it changes. You change (reflect life) as the life around you changes, and it is changing all the time

-And in the end the love you take, is equal to the love you make.In other words, the more love you take from life or accept from life, the more you will be able to make or reflect back to people

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