Kerrious

When Curiosity Doesn't Kill You……YOU LEARN. More Than Just a Breathe of Fresh Air

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I’ve Learned; Society

Shouldn’t have to tell you twice

to not tell me twice

and to take my meds

Project onto me your anxieties

as I’m fearless

and not scared of anything anymore

Not life, not death

waiting on others

why should I tell them twice?

Dragging out minutes of truth

to suffice your needs

and addictions.

While I sat in a place

disappointed in my fellow man

lasting weeks, what should have been just hours

to understand – at least to me.

Waiting on the others

don’t tell me twice to take my meds

or anything for that matter

But I’ll tell you twice

enough until you listen

take your meds, society

take them with food

my fear is your appetite

but I fear no more

so you will starve

and I won’t tell you twice

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

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I’ve Learned; Fine

Physically Fine

Physically Able

that was never the question

yet I was healed through grace

only your family can heal you.

Diseased and a disgrace

I was alone but fighting

But there I didn’t have to anymore.

Released all control

healed the pain

where did my blood go?

I can only tell you so

I am human and physically able

mentally capable of deciding for myself to help

while others take the credit

at least I can sleep at night.

Exposing my weakness

through physical prowless

yet you forgot to look at yourselves

and the mental damage

you’ve caused everyone

who has seen you.

Change –

physically fine, physically able.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all right reserved).

I’ve Learned; Love

I said if only love was enough

but it is enough, it is enough

That’s all we really do need

love was always enough, for me

While you search the world

for happiness

My love will linger

and I’m always right here

but you won’t be.

Because love is enough

even though you may still question

if love was ever enough?

You can play catch up

while my love grows.

Will we ever meet in that place again?

in between truth and reality?

I know I’m alone in this space

for miles and miles away.

Love was enough

and we all held it through

despite the fear and hate

we want to spread Love

even to those who wouldn’t.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Nature

That’s right, I don’t own you

you choose to be with me

The fish choose to

like the cat who found a home

because they see that home in you

they choose to be caught

and all need to live a full life

then choose to fill your cravings

for we do not own anything.

You don’t own anyone

certainly not me

but I choose you

and He just heppened to take notice

trusted my judgement, as poor as yours.

Yet I know I wasn’t owed anything

because we are free

and you don’t own anything,

not the tree, for they should own you.

Destroyers of the old world

where are you now?

Creators of the new world

we are the ones here now.

And we know, we don’t own anything

they are gifts to be bestowed

eyed upon all.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Happy

I’m everything

rolled into one

cause I see you in me

and you are beautiful and smart

courageous and kind

soft spoken yet fierce

child-like and wise

much too valuable

for a place like this

but everything would wait

for everything as it

sees nothing to fight for

and nothing to gain

but for you to be happy

whichever way you choose,

Because I am Happy.

and you deserve to be too….

Everything is beautiful and smart

and I am you and you are me

with a soul

everything is free

it’s a free ride

and we own nothing.

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all right reserved).

I’ve Learn; Control

Control over men

you shouldn’t obtain

control over yourself

mission incomplete

you like what you tasted

but did nothing with it

that’s not the rules to my game.

But I understand

and have been away

to only come back

with the words to say

it’s not like us to demand control

it’s not like us to want so much more

it’s not like me to hold on

it’s not like you to let go.

There is no control

of your own making

succumb to a woman

while we wait

you play catch up.

See what they did to you

turned you into?

Something that’s not even true

just because they couldn’t understand you?

But we are here, while they fear themselves only

to say

This time it’s for real

There’s a lot of things you can’t control.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Crazy

I ain’t running


Running, Running, Running

Keep that train coming

but they can’t seem to find me, anywhere

Here I am I thought

inside here, this human flesh

I’ve been in for years but they can’t seem to find me

because they haven’t found themselves

So alone I wait and pace and pace

while you alone call me crazy

when everything’s been upside down

Now I love when they call me crazy

as I no longer need to fear

cause now I see it was you, not me

as they no longer call me crazy.

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Techonology

I remember in third grade, the teacher put on a movie and everyone was so entranced. i was only interested with the fact everyone was entranced and staring at a screen like it was the best day of their lives. I looked around and noticed I was the only one who wasn’t watching the movie. I thought that was weird to be so absorbed by a screen. To be so enthralled by a tv set like a hypnotized lack of entertainment. I guess I saw it every where else instead.So I pretended to be interested and that wasn’t the last time.

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved). distant memory, written last year.

I’ve Learned; Misery Loves Company

You took a short cut home

ran into a silky web

no big deal;

although the spider

took a turn for the worse

trying to kill me

with its poison,

but yet I did not want it dead

I was fine before you.

Your curse is obsolete!

When I said you

didn’t care to know

I meant it

because I knew

where you were heading

and I still love you

yet I understand

it was in another life

another time

but we met again

just to say hey,

it’s good to see you again

yet you were the same

taking for granted

all the talent you were given

I can’t live like that.

When all I wanted to do

was save you.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved.)

I’ve Learned; Goodbye to the Past

written in 2010


You’ve asked for my forgiveness a million times before
Although you weren’t deserving
I thought that you loved me, I thought that you cared
But really it was an illusion.
I smack myself daily as a reminder of the truth
I turned my head in an opposite direction
And let the rest come down to strength

Now the time has come for mending
There’s no drinking down the pain
Or swallowing my soul
I’m going to do it sober
I need the clarity

In the past I have loved you until my belly ached
This time I observed closely and saw what i had feared
All judgment was absent and my mind brand new
In the end I was reminded why they say
Don’t live in the past
And that was all done by you
Thank you

Such a waste of flesh
Mind body and soul
Such a waste of light
You could have been so bright

Okay….

How do I get my head around this
With so much contempt and absence left
How do I mend with such a heavy heart
I never could play the part
Remember when I made you smile
Remember how I made you laugh
In your deepest sorrows
My voice echoed through your veins
And with every misfortune
I gave you my hand
I said the world is cruel and unkind
but what if I was meant to make it shine ?
if not for me than for you
because I don’t believe in anything
if that isn’t true
you said when I was gone
you dreamt of me every night
you’d wake up and think I was by your side
but upon that awakening you were struck with disappointment
to know that I had gone a long time ago
you said you felt me in your arms and that it felt so real
and I just smiled at you and let the silence fill the air/do the talking
maybe all I can be to you is a dream as lucid as it seemed
dreams are what drive the human mind/we long for
so if I were yours you’d have nothing left to dream
as reflection crept near as it has done so many times before
I can’t honestly say
? must it be so late on this clock dangling on the wall ?
I never dreamt of you at all…

and that was a lie because

I did dream of someone.


I cried and said I never kissed anyone the way I kiss him
The tissue kept dry and my tears I wouldn’t hide
My brain began over riding my feelings months ago
Like a ticking bomb
Red or Blue, I could not choose
Life or death hung in the balance
But it was different because it was only my life
And that life I could spare.


Key to my heart

Along the thick grass and wild flowers
Along the trail of our desire
We lured each other at a steady but distant pace
You told me to watch out for a dip in the earth
And I let you protect my balance
As if I didn’t know how
We ventured along the sea of open meadows
As we see the silhouettes of our bodies from the night before
Pressing down the tall grass temporarily
I was dizzy but focused on the stars
The moon was perched next to us lighting up our little lives
I told you I could touch it but it would hide
You told me that you had me and I didn’t believe you
But today our view was of a town quiet
Landscapes of a past present and future
we entered an old house and found treasures of a lost soul
abandoned and desolate, scattered and torn
you asked me if you had my heart and I said I didn’t know
I locked up the key and threw it out a long time ago
I said if you found a key then you can have my heart
You took my words as truth and among the sea of abandonment
You found a key I had not seen
A place I thought I gazed with my wandering eyes
Complacent we stood, a little surprised
I never imagined the look in our eyes
And we were certain it meant something real
A concrete object in the palm of my hands
Something I could grasp
To justify the what ifs and goodbyes
We walked out over the boards with protruding nails
Into the meadow we retraced our steps
Halfway back we had no reason to doubt
and gave into a kiss that would validate our capture


we never asked ourselves if the key fit
and it didn’t fit
and it didn’t fit
truth is there’s a billion keys out there
we were naïve to think it was the key to my heart
but that moment in time kept me alive and hopeful, keeping me in touch with life to keep finding what I was looking for, whatever that may be.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

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