Before it occurs
she knows it will happen
at first she thinks it will not
or it’s impossible
but it’s out of her control
feels like a heavy load
a cross to bare
she just needs that one
to breakthrough
with her
beside her
someone brave
yet afraid
to know that she’s worth it
a thousand times more
than the picture
that has been painted
so much more
than the eye can see
she’s given so much more
than you could believe
depleted her blood flow
making her weak
she tries to speak
knows she shouldn’t react
because it’s too deep
when she does
she reminds herself it’s over
now she waits
for someone to give some back
to her
she found it in herself
but doubts it can be found
anywhere else
When she does
it’s taken away
as if her purpose
is to do so
as if she is forever tortured
for a lifetime
when she realized this
she wept for days
to know can be a curse
at best
she can smile
knowing something big
bigger than herself
exists
while she shares it away
for the good of us all
heartbreaking still
to know
they stole it
and
her life is like this
they come and go
but she still cares
but she can say it’s okay
because a heart like that
never grows old
never grows tired
always repairs itself
to do better
But after it happens
she starts to wonder
why she loves so much
but can’t let herself be loved
because love like hers
can’t be matched
and no one is up
for the challenge
in this small world
all the others
the other big hearts were ruined
far too soon
but not forever.
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