Kerrious

When Curiosity Doesn't Kill You……YOU LEARN. More Than Just a Breathe of Fresh Air

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I’ve Learned; You Just Know

I know I love you because I’ve been surpassing all the levels on the way to love and realizing it. I always look forward to the next level and am excited with how far we can go. That sir, is what I think love is and I love you. I just want to be your partner through these levels, together. I may not always be able to tell you why. All I know is how to trust myself. When I’m with you I am  myself and never feel ashamed about that. I never look down o you. In fact, I admire your way of being. It exists in me too and I think I know why. I want you just how you make me happy, exactly who you are and how you make me feel. I don’t care to worry about the future because I have the feeling it will be okay. I want you to continue with me through this experience as a human being.

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved). Sample love letter.

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I’ve Learned; Stupid

Maybe stupid has become synonymous with I don’t give a fuck what you’re definition of smart is. And everyone thinks they know what the definition is. If being stupid is being in the moment, not carrying any weight on your shoulders, and all around heart, then I do believe when they say the world is upside down. We have to care about ourselves enough to give it up already. Let’s do something different, something has to change. That’s why they call us stupid. I think I’m pretty lucky but they think we haven’t threaded just as long and hard as them? Or think we couldn’t have possibly made it back from the depths of hell. It’s awesome and nothing is ever stupid again.

(copyright kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Friends

I’ve learned real friends

will give you a stick in the fight.

They won’t call you crazy

or see you as a skin suit.

“Keep your mouth shut, say nothing

and look beautiful,

anything other than that means

you aren’t love able.”

So I’m told….

But is that all I am?

Others can never define me.

Real friends define you

how you define you.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; 210 Days Ago

Because every time I do it, I get this excruciating reminding of how alone I really am. Not lonely just alone and it stays with me for days. I can’t shake it but I can’t just stop either. It consumes me for days and it’s not exactly regret or I wouldn’t have done it but it’s the reminder of what it’s like to be so close to a person, connected like that. Something I took for granted when I did have it even if it was with the wrong people. You just don’t know how much you miss something until you taste it again. Or how much you long to connect and be so close to a person because it’s the only thing we really have. And I now have nothing. Maybe that is the feeling knowing it wasn’t really mine but just for that moment in time. Knowing nothing good can come from it or anything with substance and that is why I feel so empty. Because I keep doing it. When I want something more, quite the opposite.

Why do I let it consume me for days after? Why does it matter so much? Because I feel like I betrayed myself to the mundane actions we humans succumb to. I want more, but sometimes it feels that is all I’ll ever have. I just want one, only one.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved). on being the other woman.

I’ve Learned; Mother Nature

She talks to animals

because she can tell they are listening

they have no home.

She talks to animals

the only ones who make sense

in tune with mother nature

I know I am a child

as she pointed to me

she said I was special

But she was telling my father

which he didn’t listen

so He walked away

through winds and rains

blind and lost

without his special daughter

keeping us all a part becomes the plan

But they weren’t prepared for her and her nature

Mother nature sees their own

and we exist

and thank you for looking over me

when times got tough

I know you exist and am always here

nowhere else to go

but to stay here with me

Talking to animals

because they understand

and listen, and they have

no where else to go.

Quit feeding your sick desires through killing any animal that is larger or smarter than you especially those animals that are more beautiful than you. All animals share this earth, and have their own lives if we don’t interfere. They should live natural lives.

It’s hunting season but yet no one picks up that deer on the side of the road to eat – even though it’s already dead and the job is done for them. No, they rather get a sick pleasure from killing.

Anything bigger than humans you try to destroy. But by destroying them we destroy ourselves because they are the caretakers of the earth and we are all connected and needed. Extinct? Why? We breed for disgusting purposes and these animals are tormented by it. We don’t do anything to fix it because men fear anything bigger, better, more beautiful, or things in which they don’t understand – NATURE is a huge one they don’t understand, but I do. Animals and children deserve better.

ALL ANIMALS HAVE A JOB AND THAT IS TO TAKE CARE OF THE EARTH! <333

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Society

Shouldn’t have to tell you twice

to not tell me twice

and to take my meds

Project onto me your anxieties

as I’m fearless

and not scared of anything anymore

Not life, not death

waiting on others

why should I tell them twice?

Dragging out minutes of truth

to suffice your needs

and addictions.

While I sat in a place

disappointed in my fellow man

lasting weeks, what should have been just hours

to understand – at least to me.

Waiting on the others

don’t tell me twice to take my meds

or anything for that matter

But I’ll tell you twice

enough until you listen

take your meds, society

take them with food

my fear is your appetite

but I fear no more

so you will starve

and I won’t tell you twice

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Love

I said if only love was enough

but it is enough, it is enough

That’s all we really do need

love was always enough, for me

While you search the world

for happiness

My love will linger

and I’m always right here

but you won’t be.

Because love is enough

even though you may still question

if love was ever enough?

You can play catch up

while my love grows.

Will we ever meet in that place again?

in between truth and reality?

I know I’m alone in this space

for miles and miles away.

Love was enough

and we all held it through

despite the fear and hate

we want to spread Love

even to those who wouldn’t.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Nature

That’s right, I don’t own you

you choose to be with me

The fish choose to

like the cat who found a home

because they see that home in you

they choose to be caught

and all need to live a full life

then choose to fill your cravings

for we do not own anything.

You don’t own anyone

certainly not me

but I choose you

and He just heppened to take notice

trusted my judgement, as poor as yours.

Yet I know I wasn’t owed anything

because we are free

and you don’t own anything,

not the tree, for they should own you.

Destroyers of the old world

where are you now?

Creators of the new world

we are the ones here now.

And we know, we don’t own anything

they are gifts to be bestowed

eyed upon all.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Universal Donors

Universal Donor; are we?

Universal Pride!

Laid in the hands of what was left,

fighting like rats?

You in the corner? or we who are free?

Like rats backed into a corner

scratching the surface

too afraid to move

Yet willing to die instead, you were.

But you forgot and I don’t blame you

Just stop digging is all I ask.

Everything’s gonna be okay.

Universal flight

universal sight

and my love for you is infinite

just like your might

just like you, my favorites

universal donors yet universal truth

Please don’t be afraid, I Love you……

For I feel in love with humans

and all the secrets they hold

especially from themselves

and how they do it so well

and how I am not like them but I Love them.

What’s in the blood

They can’t take my blood

transfusions…

of my own design

good deeds unnoticed,

while others take the credit

silly people with even sillier brains.

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Company

“Slight Daydream” written in 2008 – feeling content with what I’ve learned from others; good and bad. Getting company as I was feeling alone.


Peaking out the blinds
As if I can’t walk outside
Looking at the sun
As if no one can see it
Gazing towards the street
As if I had someone to meet
Staring about the apartment
As if it’s a reflection of my life
Blaring my music selection
As if others can’t hear
Though no one can hear it like I do
It binds to my soul and keeps me here
Staring at the trees and neighboring yards
As if it all belonged to me
Hearing voices and occasional screams
As if I weren’t capable
It all comes to a freeze
As the doorbell rings.

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

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