Kerrious

When Curiosity Doesn't Kill You……YOU LEARN. More Than Just a Breathe of Fresh Air

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Because when I didn’t want or need to breathe anymore, something else was doing it for me.

(Copyright Kerrious 2015 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; You Just Know

I know I love you because I’ve been surpassing all the levels on the way to love and realizing it. I always look forward to the next level and am excited with how far we can go. That sir, is what I think love is and I love you. I just want to be your partner through these levels, together. I may not always be able to tell you why. All I know is how to trust myself. When I’m with you I am  myself and never feel ashamed about that. I never look down o you. In fact, I admire your way of being. It exists in me too and I think I know why. I want you just how you make me happy, exactly who you are and how you make me feel. I don’t care to worry about the future because I have the feeling it will be okay. I want you to continue with me through this experience as a human being.

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved). Sample love letter.

I’ve Learned; Stupid

Maybe stupid has become synonymous with I don’t give a fuck what you’re definition of smart is. And everyone thinks they know what the definition is. If being stupid is being in the moment, not carrying any weight on your shoulders, and all around heart, then I do believe when they say the world is upside down. We have to care about ourselves enough to give it up already. Let’s do something different, something has to change. That’s why they call us stupid. I think I’m pretty lucky but they think we haven’t threaded just as long and hard as them? Or think we couldn’t have possibly made it back from the depths of hell. It’s awesome and nothing is ever stupid again.

(copyright kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; 210 Days Ago

Because every time I do it, I get this excruciating reminding of how alone I really am. Not lonely just alone and it stays with me for days. I can’t shake it but I can’t just stop either. It consumes me for days and it’s not exactly regret or I wouldn’t have done it but it’s the reminder of what it’s like to be so close to a person, connected like that. Something I took for granted when I did have it even if it was with the wrong people. You just don’t know how much you miss something until you taste it again. Or how much you long to connect and be so close to a person because it’s the only thing we really have. And I now have nothing. Maybe that is the feeling knowing it wasn’t really mine but just for that moment in time. Knowing nothing good can come from it or anything with substance and that is why I feel so empty. Because I keep doing it. When I want something more, quite the opposite.

Why do I let it consume me for days after? Why does it matter so much? Because I feel like I betrayed myself to the mundane actions we humans succumb to. I want more, but sometimes it feels that is all I’ll ever have. I just want one, only one.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved). on being the other woman.

I’ve Learned; Family

You can’t own God’s creations

you can’t steal his children

we are free

you are not.

you create your own chains

there is so much to enjoy

and nothing to fear ever again.

To get through the change

is all you need to do

be strong enough to change

brave enough to keep going

wise enough to know you aren’t in control

A Human Intervention

Kept holding the truth

it’s inevitable; we matter

Those who thought they could control this and only save their own have lost their soul throughout it all but there is salvation. They lost sight of the truth on their quest to contain the truth. and yet they want another chance? They never should have done it but if they hadn’t we wouldn’t all be learning this great lesson. We are all family. metaphorically speaking. i don’t believe in family anymore, because everyone just wants to save their own and my family didn’t save me or help me. not here anyway.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Mother Nature

She talks to animals

because she can tell they are listening

they have no home.

She talks to animals

the only ones who make sense

in tune with mother nature

I know I am a child

as she pointed to me

she said I was special

But she was telling my father

which he didn’t listen

so He walked away

through winds and rains

blind and lost

without his special daughter

keeping us all a part becomes the plan

But they weren’t prepared for her and her nature

Mother nature sees their own

and we exist

and thank you for looking over me

when times got tough

I know you exist and am always here

nowhere else to go

but to stay here with me

Talking to animals

because they understand

and listen, and they have

no where else to go.

Quit feeding your sick desires through killing any animal that is larger or smarter than you especially those animals that are more beautiful than you. All animals share this earth, and have their own lives if we don’t interfere. They should live natural lives.

It’s hunting season but yet no one picks up that deer on the side of the road to eat – even though it’s already dead and the job is done for them. No, they rather get a sick pleasure from killing.

Anything bigger than humans you try to destroy. But by destroying them we destroy ourselves because they are the caretakers of the earth and we are all connected and needed. Extinct? Why? We breed for disgusting purposes and these animals are tormented by it. We don’t do anything to fix it because men fear anything bigger, better, more beautiful, or things in which they don’t understand – NATURE is a huge one they don’t understand, but I do. Animals and children deserve better.

ALL ANIMALS HAVE A JOB AND THAT IS TO TAKE CARE OF THE EARTH! <333

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Society

Shouldn’t have to tell you twice

to not tell me twice

and to take my meds

Project onto me your anxieties

as I’m fearless

and not scared of anything anymore

Not life, not death

waiting on others

why should I tell them twice?

Dragging out minutes of truth

to suffice your needs

and addictions.

While I sat in a place

disappointed in my fellow man

lasting weeks, what should have been just hours

to understand – at least to me.

Waiting on the others

don’t tell me twice to take my meds

or anything for that matter

But I’ll tell you twice

enough until you listen

take your meds, society

take them with food

my fear is your appetite

but I fear no more

so you will starve

and I won’t tell you twice

(copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Fine

Physically Fine

Physically Able

that was never the question

yet I was healed through grace

only your family can heal you.

Diseased and a disgrace

I was alone but fighting

But there I didn’t have to anymore.

Released all control

healed the pain

where did my blood go?

I can only tell you so

I am human and physically able

mentally capable of deciding for myself to help

while others take the credit

at least I can sleep at night.

Exposing my weakness

through physical prowless

yet you forgot to look at yourselves

and the mental damage

you’ve caused everyone

who has seen you.

Change –

physically fine, physically able.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all right reserved).

I’ve Learned; Mission

Mission accommplished

solutions to a problem

unknown source; to you

profound confirmation

God’s not dead

you lost sight of the mission

This is what transpires

When you think your father’s Dead.

Stitch you all up

like Jesus tried

it took so long for his ripple to transpire

but is it too late for you?

I feel he leaves no man behind

you can only leave yourself behind,

unless he intervenes

Has he intervened? Think about it.

Mission in waiting

hearing your cues

mission not accomplished

without all of you.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learn; Control

Control over men

you shouldn’t obtain

control over yourself

mission incomplete

you like what you tasted

but did nothing with it

that’s not the rules to my game.

But I understand

and have been away

to only come back

with the words to say

it’s not like us to demand control

it’s not like us to want so much more

it’s not like me to hold on

it’s not like you to let go.

There is no control

of your own making

succumb to a woman

while we wait

you play catch up.

See what they did to you

turned you into?

Something that’s not even true

just because they couldn’t understand you?

But we are here, while they fear themselves only

to say

This time it’s for real

There’s a lot of things you can’t control.

(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).

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