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I’ve Learned; God’s Will

It’s like you moved me

away from God’s plan

uprooted my whole destiny

God’s will.

Except he took notice

and became enraged

with the entire world

I always felt like

my life was wrong for me

like I was meant to be somewhere else

anywhere else

with anyone else.

When I realized the darkness

was trying to sway me

into that direction

and took it upon themselves

to change God’s will

they never though

they would get caught.

But I’m here now

and they can’t change that

I still found my way

towards the divine

I still have in me

what he gave me in the beginning.

Just because I scare you

because your intentions are bad

just because I exist

to become so much more

more than you bargained for

more than you gave me.

I want to reclaim my place

I want to punish you

for what you’ve done to me

years of suffering

wondering why

why I never felt right

like I was living a lie

in someone else’s dream

I want to smash your dreams

there is no hope for you

the dark times are ending

and taking you with them.

I sure I surprised you

pulling through in the end

staying true to my soul

while you play games with others

but I still feel sorry for you

there must be something I can do

I turned my back on you

I saw the tricks you tried to play

taking me away

away from my purpose

to fulfill

God’s will.

You’ll just have to deal

with yourselves

and the mess you made

because now he knows

you’ve betrayed us all.

He’s taking back what’s his

his plan was delayed

because of these games you play

why deny the inevitable

why lie to yourselves?

Get out of my realm

you just make it worse

No what thou wilt

is what you do these days

except you forgot and

He’s back to say

you can’t win this way

you can’t change his will

or hurt us

ever again.

 

(Copyright Kerrious 2016 with all rights reserved).

I’ve Learned; Not Everyone is Worth Saving

You threw me out

threw me away

I would never do that to you.

I keep thinking about that time

and how I wasn’t well

and how you treated me

during that time.

You abandoned me

at my time of need

just like everyone else.

No one was there for me

except the spirit realm

I was being shown

no matter how much I care

others won’t always care

about me.

I must care about myself

enough to let you go.

I’m still angry about that

how I was so easily dismissed

thrown away

out into the middle of nowhere

when I needed you most

It feels like everyone is the same

playing this stupid game

they think they know

what they are fighting for

but I just remember

when you weren’t there

something invisible was

I didn’t want to go back

back to the abuse

but you threw me in that direction

so I slept in my car

I didn’t make it far

so I was taken away

and you didn’t care

no one did.

Now I know

not everyone is worth saving

even though I wanted to save us all

I’ve learned a lot from this

not everyone deserves me

not at all…

I’m not perfect

but I would never do that to you

sleepless nights I would stay up

to protect you

just like the spirits protected me

from you…

It still hurts inside

when I think about it

I don’t think I’ll ever get over it

to know I gave you everything

to only be thrown away

in the end

like I was nothing

nothing to you.

But I am something to someone

in another realm.

I feel you betray me

as we speak

Try to defeat me

if you try

you will find them

taking up for me.

Something you never did.

 

(Copyright kerrious 2015 with all rights reserved).

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