I’ve Learned; Fallen Angel
I woke up
was thrown to the ground
as I clutched my stomach
as if something came into it
it felt like a beam of a spirit
someone else inside me.
Then I walked down the stairs
into another room
where I was alone
I began to feel
all the sadness in the world
and held it in my heart
where I fell to the floor
and broke down and cried
a cry I have never heard before
echoed through my ears
while I cried out
“there’s so much pain here”
as if I was transported
back to earth
from some magical place
where there was no pain or suffering
and the sadness went away
there I learned
there is a place like that
beyond what we see
beyond what we do to each other.
I released it all that day
and as I walked in your room
you asked if I felt better
and I can honestly say
I did.
I was courageous
to take on all that pain
to really feel it in my body
and release it to another world
to be held
where it belonged.
We aren’t meant to carry these burdens
or hold the weight of the world
we are meant to hand it over.
When we breakdown
we forget it’s not our place
but I knew that already
and surrendered it all
to you.
I never felt anything close to it
that’s a fallen angel for you
coming in
to take all the pain of the world
my world
and theirs too.
While it was inside me
I felt a jolt in the pit of my stomach
and after I cried
it was gone
just like that.
So I know I didn’t break
not that easily
something else was there for me
something you can’t see.
But just because you can’t see it
doesn’t mean I didn’t feel it
doesn’t make it
any less real.
Because what we feel is real.
(copyright Kerrious 2016 with all rights reserved).
