That even in those days their weapons will not hurt you. Yet they tried black magic to make their weapons work and I say unto u who are u projecting to? Tossing your diseases onto another can only come back and harm your mother. So to speak. That metaphorically speaking hurting those u hate hurts those u love but when it comes to me all I loved and all I hated gets hurt equally because they all hated me equally.
So it’s like the devil has to face God and although he faced me and I could have killed him I am not God and do not hold the will to kill him bc I never listened to him to act it out but to turn his Saturn into a star so that he can’t escape what he planned that if he just learned to drop his pride and apologize to people and make it right which he has by making them rich and famous yet I am not one he has to make up to bc I never listen but I showed him actor by being genuine and displaying my dark in reality everyday living and how honestly my people suffer from lack of knowledge is real. I love u God.
That I say back and watch the devil be happy with my death over and over and over again. How we cannot kill each other and God is working here. How I know more than the devil and how cover his ass is his game and I get shit from people whom I saved yet he finds me a threat to his game but God is awake because I woke him and healed him and even God took a leap of faith and how I said I would make Satan’s name right like they desecrated my name Eve and how it’s funny now but during the time if I was God how I’d kill you and how me and the devil are the only relationship like that killing each other because we think we’re right. Yet I rise and somehow u live so we can laugh now.
Dear Mom,
You have no idea the anchor
And stability
You have given me
And the fact I thought
I had to be that for you
But the fact you came through
And shown me
Nothing compares to you
And you came through
In my career
And life
To be there
When all was a strife
That I do listen to u
So much in fact
I blame u
When things go amiss
Or it’s just my rift
Lol my own chord
Of what I bring
To the table
And this holiday season
I can’t help but
Bow down
To you
I love you.
And oh my mother
How she always looked to me
Without a doubt
Without a question
That her knowing I was good
Was good enough for me
And how the way she treated me
Let me be me
And how she never
Ever
Degraded me
Or put me in a category
Of not human
That ever since I was little
Like four years old
She treated me like an adult
And she never had to worry
Or delve into anything else
Than knowing
I was here
And being of her
She had no question
Of what
I would become
And was
And how I look back at that now
And know
She knew I’d never stray
Or betray
How she trusted
Me
As her daughter
And how rare
And extinct that is
To not fight each other
But to know
We will
Pull through
And how
I love u so much
I could cry
And how nothing
Equals the beauty and truth
And that it encompass
That you have allowed me
To experience with you
And my mother
Is so wonderful
The way I’d wake up in the mornings
But her first
And I’d come downstairs
To only use that bathroom
Out of habit
But to see the light
Of that habit
To watch her
Put on her makeup
Although she wasn’t akin
To the staring
I did
Or the fact
I was watching
Her artistry
Every morning
Go off to work
No matter what
And how
I love her so much
Because
That is the truth
She taught me
Without the classroom
But in real life
Dear God
My mom is so beautiful
When she walks
When she talks
When she smiles
Is the worse
Because
She smiles
With so much more
Than this world has to offer
How she always was so perfect
More so than this world
How without her
Knowing I knew
Her beauty
She would still be her
Put in her Wilson Phillips tape
And play hold on
Before tragedy hit
A prophet in her own right
How she said she’d never do something
That she did
And how I am like that too
How I would have to be something
I said I wouldn’t do
To love you
As above so below. Yet when the above re arranges due to the lack of as below not unfolding then where do you stand? Isn’t that funny that if one life doesn’t unfold as small as it may seem the whole does not? That even I as small as I am have the whole universe held hostage? Until my potential is filled and that’s where we’re at folks. That the above represents us not the other way around. What’s inside me led the Big Dipper to turn upside and pour my waters unto u ?
With my mind I could create colorful stars and with my eyes I could create the light around the earth and the platform the moon and my heart ignites a thousand battles told before and my invisible cloak saw what you’d rather not have me see and how I know even tho u don’t want me to yet u being helpless stems in the form of innocence only because it’s a mask of what you’ve stolen never to become all that u imagined. That what u are in your head and when you’re alone can never come into fruition to reality yet u still stay near feeding off my fear and light. With my eyes I gave light to the earth and by body although slain rose to prove to u sacrifice is obsolete and what do u gain? Nothing! U still are u and I am still me! U cannot take my place. Because we all know now that if u could it’d be a lot worse!
The the pupils wanted to fight their master and in return the master arose to show the pupils u cannot kill and expect it to be over. U cannot kill one and expect all the pain and misery to go away that killing one does not take away the suffering. That is never the solution. Murder is never an escape and death either. Although I know I could exist or not I do not escape I’d still come back to see it through. And that peace is new and takes accustom to.
