Dear God
I’m two weeks sober
Going for forever
Although i can’t imagine
Never drinking again
I want to get that wine
Off the internet for half price
I want to try it
Please.
But maybe i have too many problems to drink
I really do
Maybe one day if i am healed
I can have some wine and be responsible.
I really want to.
Try.
I can’t believe I’ve acted a fool
And done the things I’ve done lately
I’m on probation
I’m a fool!
Oh God
A full hearted fool
Desperate for justice i suppose
But i know things can’t be the way i want them
So i just think about God’s will
And how God will handle it all
Not me
I can do nothing
It is out of my control
I know it is
And I know God will do what is best
I really can’t believe the things I’ve done
To the ones that i love the most
How could i
I’m so hurt
I am trying so hard to be different
To change for the better
Please god help