well i didn’t go to the AA meeting, i feel like i need my ptsd medicine first, i really want to go to the next one. They are so late in the afternoon that I’m already feeling anxiety and the need to drink so it’s perfect timing to go to a meeting instead of drink. This evening what i did instead of drink was go to goodwill and shop and I’m glad i did. I found a bunch of workout clothes for the gym and walking which is way better than drinking. Instead of drinking i found what i needed for my goals – -clothes for the gym because I’m going to start going. I took a walk this evening as well. Gia is at her grandmas she is so sweet. I love her so much to death to the moon and back. She has my heart. We are going to have fun together and a good life together. So yeah i will go to the next AA meeting. I book a reiki session as well. So i am looking forward to that. Can’t wait to see what that is all about and have it done. I think I should book a massage and chiropractor appointment too. All in good time. Chiropractor is very affordable actually. We had steak and potoatos and corn on the cob for dinner tonight while watching UFC fights. I love Brett he is a good cook and good to me. Oh and he got me roses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!