All i want to do is be a mother to my daughter and be the best i can be. I want to feel better and i want to be happy all the time not just sometimes. I want a perfect life where i can face anything with the right attitude and just focus on my little life instead of the worlds problems. I want to get healthy and on the right medications for ptsd and once i get those medicines i will not have triggers to stress out about. My mind just goes crazy when i see a trigger that triggers my ptsd and my doctor has the cure and i can’t wait to get it and eat it all up and feel better and be a better person and better attitude and not stress out over triggers. Anything that has to do with the people that hurt me is a trigger. Could be a picture or a word it just goes off in my head a pain. Jesus Christ at least knows what i mean.