I hear them
Loud and clear
Over and out
Inside and outside
They’re terrified of me
I push them away day and night
I sobered up
I took a shower
I got dressed. I ate
I replinished
And starved
And my head is throbbing
With the desire to hurt
But I do not find that hurt
It’s searching
Stressfully
Reaching and pulling
At anything
Different
Or anything the same
Any of the same abuse
Any of the same
But it’s gone….
The tragedy has been alchemized
Into a beautiful existence
Only I can decipher
If I choose
And only I can get dressed in the morning
And only I
Can starve myself
Of all that is bad
For me….
I’ve absorbed the heartache of many
I’ve absorbed the words
In all actuallity
The few
But these few
Do not define society
And the world
In which I live in
Only the few say I’m stupid
Only the few would go out of their way
To harm me
Only the few
Would continue to do so
