Either way I didn’t feel like I was doing anything wrong. I like boys. I had a preconceived notion. Like I couldn’t have planned it better myself like I was a demon Trickster doing whatever she pleased in order to check and fool the fool. It was all just fun and games. But I was extremely happy and excited that I was a part of his life.I did not need any instruction or the devil. I was not under a spell and I was not forced by a demon or anything invisible. But my own happiness and I could be myself and true to myself whatever form that took But I believe in monogamy more than anything else in the world. Not because of jealousy but because of higher evolution Because C not even love is as high as I want to go. Higher evolution is my main agenda and I believe I found somebody to do it with. So what seem like a devastating end of the world was nothing more but a beginning. A real true to myself opportunity. That you can’t fool me again. I found somebody who makes me smile without marijuana. I found somebody with a solid foundation of love and not blindness. I wouldn’t never had his kids but I would this man. That that was a childish love and it’s time to grow up. I just see myself as a hurt demon growing angel wings.