Kerrious

When Curiosity Doesn't Kill You……YOU LEARN. More Than Just a Breathe of Fresh Air

I Don’t Know why

I don’t know why

you had such a change of heart

I don’t know why

you thought you could

have more than one girl.

I don’t know why

you think anyone would put up with that

if they really loved you.

I don’t know why

you attacked me

for days and days

I don’t know why

you were so enraged

you strangled me

four times

before I called the cops

and I don’t know why

the cops just let you go

to come back

and strangle me again

this time

with a bed sheet

while I was sleeping.

I don’t know

why you wanted me to feel trapped

I don’t know why

you told you’re friends

I was abusive

when that is what you were doing to me.

I don’t know why

they believed it

I don’t know why

you snapped one day

I don’t know why

I’m barely alive.

I don’t know why

you called your mistress

to save you

and have her dad

come with you

to get your motorcycle

I bought you

as a special gift

just for you.

I don’t know why

I spent any money on you

or time

or thought I was so love in with you.

I don’t know why

I still am in love with you

how despite all that

I understand you

and want nothing more

than to run back to you

take the chance

you’ll snap again

because all the good times

were worth those days

you weren’t yourself

and blamed me for everything.

I don’t know why

you wanted to destroy us

destroy love

that’s how you became

my enemy

was because you destroyed love

one thing I can’t look past

and move on with you

so I move on without you

trying to find someone

who won’t try to destroy love

or me or themselves.

I don’t know why

at all…

I just think

how much I want

to wake up

and see you at my bedside

as I jumped up instantly

to give you a hug.

I was so happy and in love

nothing could phase me.

now I can die of heartbreak

and almost did too.

I just think

jumping up to give you a hug

would make me feel better

and kissing you would too.

how I never kissed anyone

the way I kissed you

for the last time.

but you were too blind to see

my best kiss was our last

you were too blind to see

how much I loved you

and would do anything for you

not to keep you

but to see you happy

because I was happy

and wanted to reciprocate.

I don’t know why

you broke things off

the way you did

as if it was war

and you spread lies about me

just like the last abusive ex

how you couldn’t take

responsibility for assault

and blamed it on me

how you couldn’t handle

the responsibility of love

at all….

I may have almost died a lot

but now I know

I’m not the one dying

you are

inside and outside

of me.

anywhere I find you

I will murder the thought

I will have no excuses

to look back

I don’t know why

you wanted it this way

and I don’t know why

you call me months later

as if I would talk to you

after the way you handled

what could of been

a mature break up

with a conversation

instead of you trying to kill me.

I don’t know why

you do these things to yourself

and I can’t save you

I don’t know why

I thought I could make you better

since I was better with you.

I don’t know why

you destroyed my happiness

my life and love.

And i’m not going to search

for the answers.

I’ll let your actions

be the deciding factor

and the way you treated me

is unforgivable

undeniably heartbreaking

not heart felt.

poor girl

poor girl

poor girl.

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