I’ve Learned; Not Everyone is Worth Saving
You threw me out
threw me away
I would never do that to you.
I keep thinking about that time
and how I wasn’t well
and how you treated me
during that time.
You abandoned me
at my time of need
just like everyone else.
No one was there for me
except the spirit realm
I was being shown
no matter how much I care
others won’t always care
about me.
I must care about myself
enough to let you go.
I’m still angry about that
how I was so easily dismissed
thrown away
out into the middle of nowhere
when I needed you most
It feels like everyone is the same
playing this stupid game
they think they know
what they are fighting for
but I just remember
when you weren’t there
something invisible was
I didn’t want to go back
back to the abuse
but you threw me in that direction
so I slept in my car
I didn’t make it far
so I was taken away
and you didn’t care
no one did.
Now I know
not everyone is worth saving
even though I wanted to save us all
I’ve learned a lot from this
not everyone deserves me
not at all…
I’m not perfect
but I would never do that to you
sleepless nights I would stay up
to protect you
just like the spirits protected me
from you…
It still hurts inside
when I think about it
I don’t think I’ll ever get over it
to know I gave you everything
to only be thrown away
in the end
like I was nothing
nothing to you.
But I am something to someone
in another realm.
I feel you betray me
as we speak
Try to defeat me
if you try
you will find them
taking up for me.
Something you never did.
(Copyright kerrious 2015 with all rights reserved).
