I’ve Learned; Living With the Enemy
Not easily persuaded,
thought I’d give it a try.
When my world grew old
the new emerged,
not because I hadn’t looked before
but because I took notice more.
It was what I had asked for, can no longer ignore.
As my tolerance grew thin
it became a catalyst, and I won’t take anymore.
Sure, you seemed harmless
yet I knew right away
because I could hear every word
and feel everything,
although you didn’t know,
because it was always about you.
All who want a good listener or audience
yet fail to hear or see anyone else.
In the presence of others,
I could see some falling for it too.
It seemed like escaping from a spider web
but not wanting to kill the spider.
It’s like seeing the spider alluring its prey
but knowing it shouldn’t be stopped.
It’s like the spider who moves in great haste
because you disturbed its web, its illusion.
Although it may bite, I won’t absorb its poison.
Rejecting all that does harm to me.
Some choose to weave a web
with delicate precision;
as intricate as the lies they tell
for others to run into,
but not all are trapped
and not all can see the web they run into,
only the means to escape
as no plea for help will suffice.
Sometimes we fight our way out just in time
sometimes we get caught,
and sometimes we defeat the spider
despite the fact it mistook us for prey.
We hold no resentment towards it,
no plans for revenge.
Instead, we choose to heal ourselves
while letting the spider go.
I know because I have tried
and always find out,
the inevitable can’t be prevented
and minds can’t be swayed,
one must already be aware of the truth
and believe in themselves enough
to see through the disguise.
Playing to the tune of my empathy
becomes the first mistake.
Then mistaking it for weakness
becomes the last misconception,
With understanding comes the realization
there is no real power through manipulation.
I thought you had the gift,
but only used it to cause harm
to all others for your hopeless gain,
but you weren’t aware
it was only harm to yourself….
Therein lies the irony,
for the selfish can’t even see it,
or the ones they are hurting.
Guess I had to live with the enemy
in order to understand it more.
To put into words…
And there I found the resolution to it all;
All those who have sought me out
for some selfish yet severely delusional
thought of taking advantage.
I’m prepared for the rumors, stories, and misunderstandings.
There’s always been someone like you,
I have let into my life, but not anymore.
Although I prevail you will stay the same,
and those thoughts you hold about me
will also stay the same because it’s too much
to come to terms with yourselves.
Go ahead and project onto me
blame me for your problems,
try to hurt me because you are hurting.
Although your delusions tell you it’s working,
doesn’t mean I believe you,
and I can’t say I didn’t try to help even after I warned you.
(Copyright Kerrious 2014 with all rights reserved).